Faces of Suicide

Diane Marcus Roy, born 12 January 1944, died 24 August 1995 in Illinois, US

Our Remembrance

From abc7chicago.com:

November 26, 2007 (initially aired February 2001) — Kevin Roy’s most treasured possessions are photos of the best way his household was once. My mom’s smile lights up portraits. My father referred to as her the glue that held us collectively.

“She was the middle of our lives, that is the kind of particular person she was,” mentioned Robert Roy, Kevin’s father.

However behind that shiny smile, Diane Marcus Roy hid a lifelong battle with bipolar dysfunction, manic-depression, which proved to be deadly. Rising up in River Forest, there have been few clues when my household lived right here. At her 50th birthday celebration, nobody may have imagined my mom can be useless a year-and-a-half later.

Her life began to unravel in 1993. After 29 years of marriage, she introduced she wished a divorce. She left my father, bought the home, stop her legislation follow and moved from Chicago to Sedona, Arizona — all inside a 12 months. She additionally had a brand new discovered curiosity in something that was of a ‘religious’ nature.

“She was seeing spiritualists, card readers, psychics…”mentioned Robert Roy.

There have been so many adjustments in so little time. They’re traditional indicators, I might later be taught, of a manic section. And so it was for the subsequent six months. Her household eager to consider these adjustments have been all for the higher. However then, instantly, she crashed.

On a summer season evening in 1995 I got here house to a message on my answering machine — my father telling me my mom was threatening suicide. We flew her again to Chicago. She met with a suicide counselor and got here up with a plan to go away Arizona and transfer again house. My mom even promised my sister and me that suicide was not an possibility. So in late August of 95, she flew again to Sedona, supposedly to promote her rental. 4 days later we bought a name from the Sedona police. She was useless.

“She put herself in a bath, she lit candles, she had gone to the shop and acquired vodka, she by no means drank, and he or she ingested this vodka as quick as she may,” mentioned Robert Roy. “I feel I ought to have gotten on that airplane together with her, I ought to have been good sufficient to say no to happening that airplane…however I used to be none of that.”

My mom did go away a observe written almost a month earlier than she died. She signed it — ‘Forgive me in the event you can… Love, Diane.’

“I really feel like she broken me…she damage me in such a horrible, horrible means,” mentioned Pamela Roy, Kevin’s sister.

Forgiveness has been troublesome — particularly forgiving ourselves for lacking or overlooking a number of the warning indicators.

Specialists say an individual is perhaps suicidal if she or he

talks about committing suicide
experiences drastic adjustments in conduct
withdraws from mates
loses curiosity in work, college, hobbies.
or offers away prized possessions.

My mother gave away her canine weeks earlier than she took her life. Now, all of it appears so apparent.
She was mentally sick. Poor choices and radical life adjustments sank her right into a horrible despair. However tragically, my mom by no means was recognized as manic-depressive.

She did take anti-depressants, from time to time…however she was by no means hospitalized nor bought the type of assist she actually wanted, as a result of she was an skilled at concealing her true emotions.

“The psychologist who noticed her on the suicide prevention heart mentioned to me, and I noticed her later, that she was one of the best that they had ever seen at hiding what she felt.”

“The considering is so fevered that one does false credit score to suppose that your mother was logical and considerate on the time that she killed herself…it was her sickness talking and never her,” mentioned Dr. David Clark, Rush College Suicidologist.

Her sickness could have had the ultimate phrase. However as my picture albums present, she spoke to us with love and caring throughout her 51 years. It’s these phrases I now hear. It’s these phrases that I nonetheless miss.

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