My Descent into Makeup Madness and Journey Back Again! : MakeupRehab

Hey guys. I have been energetic on MUR for the previous few weeks, however I by no means posted my story and I feel it could be very cathartic to take action. I like studying all your tales. Warning although, mine is lengthy and over-detailed as a result of that is who I’m. 😉

At present I am at a degree in life the place I am about to start the remainder of my life and I’ve had lots of experiences which have made me slightly reflective, however let’s begin in the beginning, lets?

In 2008, I used to be a sophomore in school and my now sister-in-law launched me to magnificence movies on YouTube. She confirmed me movies by panacea87 (Lauren Luke). I used to be mesmerized. I did not personal that a lot make-up though I had been carrying make-up since about 2001. In highschool I had an particularly unhealthy relationship with make-up as a result of I used to be satisfied I used to be the ugliest individual on the earth and I believed I wanted make-up (ah, to be an adolescent once more). I used to be enthralled by the movies and would watch one after the opposite. I’ve additionally all the time suffered from nervousness and there was one thing actually calming about them.

After some time I used to be looking for one thing on YouTube and I discovered pixiwoo. I’ll always remember the primary video I noticed. It was Sam Chapman doing a Kim Kardashian look and she or he was laughing at how she obtained lots of requests however she had no concept who Kim was or what she was well-known for. Bless her. As soon as once more I used to be enthralled by the transformation that Sam did and I made word of the colours and merchandise she used. I keep in mind MAC Black Tied and Satin Taupe eye shadows and Florabundance lip gloss. I nonetheless return and watch this video generally. I like it and truly I am carrying Satin Taupe proper now haha. Via pixiwoo I found pixi2woo (now Tanya Burr) and pixiwoo3 (now JemimaLou) and one way or the other I discovered others like SWalkerMakeup, caramorello (now ChloeMorello), FleurDeForce, and so on. Yea, oddly all non-People. I missed the boat on Elle and Blair, however they would not have been my model anyway. Presently, if you happen to recall, MAC was king and foreign money. It appeared like most make-up tutorials on YouTube had been executed with MAC merchandise and I undoubtedly put MAC merchandise on a pedestal, however it could be years earlier than I purchased something from them.

You see, till 2011, I used to be in school and I used to be on a decent price range. Cash confused me out a lot. I labored what hours I might, however I took the utmost variety of credit I used to be allowed each semester and was concerned in extracurriculars, so I all the time felt broke and I used to be the sort to starve earlier than asking my mother and father for cash.

For my 22nd birthday throughout my senior yr of faculty, my pals purchased me my first MAC merchandise: Woodwinked eye shadow and Naked Examine Paint Pot. I used to be over the moon and principally wore Woodwinked on daily basis for the remainder of the college yr. I graduated within the spring of 2011 and began my job in New York a couple of month after. The day I moved to New York, my dad took me to Soho in order that I might get some work outfits and we stopped in MAC in order that I might get a concealer. It was proper when Prolongwear concealer got here out. The SA put Prolongwear below one eye and moisture cowl below the opposite. I used to be offered on Prolongwear and the 224 brush she used (word: this concealer and brush are nonetheless my baes) however I did not bask in the rest.

Anyway, at my job I labored lots of extra time and made a very good amount of cash for a current graduate, however I used to be afraid to spend it. I waited a number of months earlier than I opened Pandora’s field and purchased MAC Honey Love lipstick after which not even 2 months later purchased Pervette, Syrup, and Creme Cup unexpectedly. I began going to MAC simply to see what was there and I discovered this web site the place I purchased a bunch of MAC and different merchandise as a result of they had been discounted. I ended up with issues just like the City Decay Vegan palette (ultimately gave that away to my good friend) and weird-ass MAC eye shadow colours like Goldenrod and Winkle (wtf?) and purchased MAC merchandise that my favourite gurus mentioned I needed to have, however that completely didn’t work on me, e.g. Girl Hazard and Vegas Volt lipsticks. In just some months I purchased in all probability over a dozen MAC lipsticks and several other eye shadows. I purchased the City Decay 15th Anniversary palette. I looked for one of the best nude shade for me (aspect word: there is not one as a result of I am not meant to have nude lips). In the meantime I used to be additionally ordering bulk make-up units on Hautelook as a result of “they had been a very good deal.” Simply FYI, units of pastel NYX pigments and jumbo NYX eye shadow pencils in colours I do not use are by no means a very good deal. I might choose up random make-up at Nordstrom Rack for a similar motive. Fortunately by way of these experiences I did choose up just a few gems alongside the best way, so it wasn’t a complete waste, however I did amass a cumbersome assortment of principally unused make-up.

Thankfully, I might afford all of it and my mega-accumulation in all probability lasted not more than eight months till the summer season of 2012 after I determined I wished to avoid wasting my cash for touring. Since then I’ve accrued just a few palettes, however I am keen on most of the shades in these palettes and I primarily waited to ask for them for my birthday or Christmas or would buy them with reward playing cards given to me for these events. Nonetheless, I’ve all of this outdated unused stuff in my assortment since 2012. It is too outdated too divulge to pals or to promote, however most of it hasn’t gone dangerous both. The ultimate straw got here from what number of instances I’ve needed to transfer. I hate packing up shit I do not use. Packing up and shifting makes me confront all of my stuff and makes me assume lengthy and arduous about what I like and what I exploit.

If I might do it once more, I truly would stick to increase my customized MAC palettes, however I might do it smarter and extra tailor-made to me and my wants (although perhaps i needed to undergo all of that to determine what I like and works for me). You see, each my mother and father are completely different sorts of hoarders and I’ve actually come to hate having further stuff. I hate when I’ve a palette and actually like just a few of the colours however do not contact many or most of them. It stresses me out. It is cumbersome and inefficient and I hate feeling like my mother and father. I in all probability love MAC as a result of trying again, the golden years of YouTube had been in all probability up till 2012, which was the start of the top. This coincided with MAC’s recognition on YouTube. I miss the times when it was make-up lovers sharing what they really beloved to make use of and doing seems to be with their precise favourite merchandise. Individuals would use the identical merchandise a number of instances, not a unique HG must-have highlighter in each video. Whereas everybody else marveled at how top quality the movies and modifying had been changing into, I could not assist however discover the rising lack of authenticity. And to today, no model will get me as excited as MAC does. The attention shadows are undoubtedly my favourite formulation. I discover City Decay shadows on common are too frosty and buttery. I like one thing extra refined.

Anyway, what have I executed to reverse the method and repair my downside? So for some time I used to be sad with my massive “assortment” however I felt like I could not half from my stuff. I used to be solely capable of half with stuff that different folks gave me and that was fully incorrect for me and I had no emotional attachment to. What actually modified me from ideas to motion was studying about KonMari and asking myself whether or not the objects sparked pleasure in me as a result of I noticed how a lot having that stuff was stressing me out and taking away from my ardour for make-up. I’ve gone by way of many rounds of asking myself this query. In a single spherical, I swatched all my blushes and eliminated what was too related. However truthfully, that wasn’t sufficient. It was such a lure to assume, “I haven’t got something like this, so I ought to hold it.” I wanted to cease filling the “holes” in my assortment. I do not want a nude lipstick and I do not want an orangey blush.

I additionally switched my on a regular basis make-up bag to an on a regular basis make-up basket, per the recommendation on MUR. From switching from bag to basket I might truly see what was in there. I rotated lots of blushes in and it made me notice what I felt like I had to make use of vs. what I truly get pleasure from utilizing. Now just about on daily basis I am going to immediately consider a product I’ve that I sort of groan after I see it as a result of I do not use it, however do not actually wish to both. I have been tossing them in one other bin and throughout the weekend, I throw them out. It feels nice. I do know in my coronary heart I will not remorse it and will not miss these objects in any respect.

The Current: My ardour for make-up has been rekindled and I discover lots of pleasure in coming to MUR. I do not really feel like I’ve to make use of eye shadows that I do not wish to use as a result of they’re there. I nonetheless learn Temptalia most days however I am not tempted to expire and purchase stuff. The feedback there generally sicken me as a result of I see the identical folks commenting about how they’re breaking the financial institution once more shopping for a brand new merchandise. Studying stuff like that jogs my memory of what I do not wish to be. For some time I might purchase extremely rated merchandise on Temptalia even when they had been completely incorrect for me. However I do know myself now and I do know what I would like and like. Nuh uh, not once more. Thanks MUR.


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